Message-Id: <8908020603.AA12909@M11-116-12.MIT.EDU>
To: <bgardner@ATHENA.MIT.EDU>
Subject: Re: Excuse me while I cry. 
In-Reply-To: Your message of Wed, 02 Aug 89 00:46:11 -0400.
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Date: Wed, 02 Aug 89 02:03:57 EDT
From: Rob Gates <klaatu@ATHENA.MIT.EDU>

Hi Brian,

	Yes, I hate you oodles and oodles :-)

	Seriously though, about a week ago, when the status of things was 
still unclear for me, and I thought there was mutual interest I was a bit
bothered by the "date" you two had, Okay, to be honest, I'm still bothered,
but in a different way now. It's not like YOU ruined my chances with him, 
or stole him or anything, it's just that things didn't work out the way I
hoped they would. I'll admit, if things work out between you two, I will be
jealous. But I wouldn't let something like this ruin a couple of good 
friendships. Especially because you're so cool, after all, if he's going to
turn me down, atleast I'll feel better if he goes for someone special and
great......if he went for a slimeball I'd feel pretty lousy! :-)
	
	Do keep me informed, okay? 

	Life for me is rather, kind of, maybe, sort of, a little, partially,
somewhat gray right now. I'm currently detached form just about everything,
with not much in the way of direction anywhere or in anything. I guess I'm 
sort of just drifting on the seas of life on autopilot for a while, so I can
get my act together. I have a few things I need to deal with before I move
forward or try to take control again. It's kind of an odd feeling, but it's
not altogether unpleasant. 

	Oh well, I should get some sleep. I just walked here from the Paradise
Rock Club in Boston where I saw The Indigo Girls, and I am tired. I'll talk to
you again soon, okay? Cheer up....SIGGRAPH will be over, and the dance will be
here, and life will be fine!


						Rob

P.S. By the way, thanx for holding back. It's nice to know that someone out
there thinks I deserve something great and is looking out for my interests so
much, I'm serious, you're great!